Bottom line, I stink at praying for this President. I’ve tried, a number of times, but it goes something like this, “Father, please…[grinding teeth, sighing, grasping for words that won’t come] ah…please make his heart turn to You.” [coughing, wincing, feeling less and less inclined to pray]
“I pray for his safety and the protection of his family” [ah, now that was much easier…on a roll now…] and ask for protection over his administration, asking that they make decisions that is in the best interest of the citizens…” [fidgeting, more wincing, sickening feeling rising in my stomach, clenching fists...]
Utterly exhausted and unable to think of more to actually use in a proper prayer, I give up and say a hasty “Amen.”
There you have it. It is I admit, pretty darned pathetic, but still the unvarnished truth of the matter. I confess these results when I try to pray for a President I cannot accept as President or even as a human being worth praying for.
Now before anyone gets their self-righteous hackles up, I’m not saying I’m in the right for feeling that way. I’m saying it’s how I feel. Big difference.
My son-in-law currently serving in Afghanistan, he I have zero problems praying at length for. My children, grandchildren, my husband all come to mind with regularity and I can pray with ease. It’s our enemies (as I often feel Mr. Obama is frankly, certainly an enemy to the Constitution I so love) or ones who have trespassed against me in a personal manner I find most difficult to pray for.
If someone has done me a wrong, in time I eventually do forgive and can pray accordingly. It’s when someone is a serial trespasser or a serial lout i.e. Mr. Obama, that I find I can not graciously forgive and pray for them. Again, I repeat, I'm not trying to persuade someone to adopt this behavior, I'm speaking from the heart of someone who struggles with doing the right thing by God's Holy standards. This is if you will, a confession.
Sometimes though, we just have to trust and obey. God never promised us a rose garden, He just promised to be there when we poked ourselves on the thorns. I’m trying to have an honest heart when I pray, I’m trying to immerse myself in the Holy Spirit and just pray like I’m supposed to but I haven’t been able to manage the trick yet when it comes to praying for our current government leadership. It’s an art I still haven’t mastered.
One thing I’ve devised for myself is to stay away from the news. This is a great sacrifice for me as I used to consider myself a news junkie until November 13, 2012.
Yet every now and again something will slip through my self-imposed news black out. Like, Mr. Obama taking an elaborate, very expensive exclusive vacation with Tiger Woods while his wife and children took another very expensive, exclusive vacation elsewhere. Do they ever think of the fact most of the millions they waste on their own personal excess is paid for by the taxpayer? If they think of it, why doesn’t this bother them?
I do not begrudge any President, even this one, a vacation if it is occasional and not a let-them-eat-cake excursion. I disliked it intensely when the media blasted GW Bush for taking his far less expensive and far less opulent vacations. What I do have a problem with however, what sticks in my craw is the soap-boxing rhetoric that comes from this President before and after these devil-may-care privileged va-cas. He complains about going over fiscal cliffs and that ridiculous “sequestration” if we don’t raise the debt ceiling blah, blah as he stamps his feet in a tantrum. He threatens that the sky will fall if we don’t “invest” in so many of his socialist pet programs, and then blames it on the Republicans and promptly goes off on holiday. There is blame enough for the Republicans, do not misunderstand. However at least they are attempting (lamely I might add) to cut spending and not raise the debt ceiling.
What causes me to trip over my words when I pray for Mr. Obama is his hubris, his audacity, his constant truth-twisting. Images of the smiling President on the 18th hole with his pal Tiger just grip my mind and cause me to almost convulse with disgust and yes anger when I attempt prayer for Mr. Obama especially given his rhetoric.
Images of the grieving families of those killed in Benghazi and the death of officer Brian Terry killed during Operation Fast and Furious with no justice yet for anyone to see, haunt me; to name merely a few of the most egregious things POTUS is responsible for.
He has blood on the hands that holds the putter on the green. Still we see no justice.
But then I'm not spotless and without sin, that's why I need a Savior.
I must pray for POTUS and all those in power and I will do it. I should do it more frequently and plan to. However, from now on I’ll pray first that the Lord gives me the strength and honest heart I need have before I do.
That’s my piece for today.